College

I would like to take this time to jot down how my classes are going. I've been to a week of classes and find some things very interesting:

Calc 3
Fun stuff. Notes. Lots of notes. I love math notes. One problem though is the school book store hasn't gotten the book for this class even a week after it was supposed to come in. They keep saying, "Come back such and such day," and I do and it's still not there and the line to the counter is wrapped around the entire store and half the class already has the book from Calc 2 but I didn't take Calc 2 so I don't! But I can do on just notes for now. All that will happen is later on I will have to spend a weekend doing practice problems to solidify what I've learned in class for the last two weeks.

Comp Sci
Blech. Too easy. I hate it. Her lectures are like, "What does a mouse do? Here is a list of different types of computer storage devices," and I'm like, "I know what a flash drive is. We don't need to spend 10 minutes on this." Did I mention that I received a CD of all the programs we need for home only to realize it's all Windows and I don't have Windows? Or that our labs are centered around the book "An Introduction to Programming Using Alice 2.2" Alice?! Of all things Alice?! I have to say it is an easy A and I got through a quarter of the book while other students were still doing the Alice tutorials so I can get my nice 4 credits with no problem and start out with a high GPA. And, other than the teacher, I'm the only girl in the class.

Physics
Started out pretty well. The lecture was basically what we learned in Calc 3 the day before (vectors) so I have a feeling they won't collide and confuse by having different terms for the same things. I've always been good at math, but mostly, my mother took physics and said it was one of the best classes she ever took, and I have a similar mind as hers, so I'm kind of excited to see what we can do. I've always had an interest in physics but never took a class so I only know the basics from what I've learned in other science classes. The lab is tomorrow so I will update about how that goes.

Also, I've been hanging out with people more. I have a large break between classes on Mondays and Wednesdays and sit outside with friends I've had for a while but haven't been able to hang out with really. Also meeting some new people, a lot of the socially awkward kind, but I still enjoy them. I will start spending even more time at the college after getting into some extra-curriculars and such.

Ren Faire Costume

A quick sketch of my D&D character. This is her first drawing, so she has her starter gear and weapons. As of writing this, she has obtained the druid's magic cloak, dual onyx blades, and, well... a baby dragon (and more irrelevant things). Here is where I will share my plans for my Ren Faire costume, which will be her starting gear minus the daggers.

Hair: A $45 wig, but kind of worth it if I'm going to wear this costume more than once, which I plan to do. The color and length is exactly what I was hoping.
Cloak: Going to add an extra panel to make it wrap more so I can skip the front button and just swing it over my shoulder. Don't like the idea of it being velvety because my character would prefer to stay away from fancy fabrics. Maybe a soft wool-like cloak. Original color was to be dark brown, but may end up with a black cloak.
Pants: Option D - Some kind of faux suede fabric. The pants are fitting but stretchy, much like thick leggings, but not. I would like to make the stitches very visible - same with the top - as my character's armor is very rough and stitchy.
Top: Don't really like this pattern but will use as reference in making the top custom. The in-character top is hardened leather in the front and I was hoping maybe to sew in some thick board or something to make it seem that way. Maybe even just use a thick faux leather, but both options seem expensive. The top will be the hardest part of the costume and I'm still not sure at all how to go about it.
Other: The fingerless gloves are a maybe/most likely not (the tiny hand is an unfixed drawing mistake)... the sash and bandana will be made from the cloak's scrap fabric.

Other patterns I have for friends and armor and bags so far include:
Shirt: For our sorcerer, but if I can't make our fighter's costume in time, I may have to make him a simpler shirt to use as "traveler's clothing".
Bags/armor
Bags/armor

Colour Lovers

I am a colour lover. I love colors! Here are some examples:

First, here is the palette used to design my new website. I wanted something different, less purple, but still funky like me! If you look at the names of the colors, almost all of them are sexy.


Next, here is a palette for an idea I have for a site for Cookiebot. It's based on a picture of cookies found from the interwebz and if I think of cookies while I look at this, I begin to get hungry for CHOCOLATEEEE!!


Finally, here is a nice green/grey color scheme I would like to use to design my boyfriend's new room when he moves. Maybe not painting the walls, but the bed clothes and window treatments definitely. And I will not allow him to go another house without covering his windows somehow!


And here is a pattern I made from it :P


Hope you love colors as much as I do!

Oh my word!

I haven't been here since OCTOBER! Here's an update:

I run the camps at the studio. I basically run the face? front-end? whatever you call the public part of the studio. Talking to parents, registration, and paychecks ^.^ I am going to college in a few weeks. Fun stuff. Ready to learn Calc 3 and Intro to Computer Science. I will be a stage tech! And I play Dungeons and Dragons. Yes, quite nerdy. And oh so fun.

I wasn't sure what else to blog about so I decided to grab that old list and let you know what's happened since then.

1. Get my bot working on this mac... then maybe on the server... (etc)

My bot works on the server and is always online now :D And it's liked. Thing is we got our own slice. No more other host to worry about! The parsing problem is gone, not sure how it got fixed though since it's been gone for a while. Just recently brought the bot in after a long downtime which was the cause of some personal frustrations. I'm thinking of making a website for the bot. That would have more content than my own XD

2. Clean up the wires behind the studio computer... (etc)

Well we got fios... might try this again. The last week before schools start we cancelled classes for parents to register. I will be there doing all the work, but there will be times where nobody comes in and I will find boredom. So I will clean!

3. Somehow be able to stream on livestream straight from my computer's DVD drive.

The thing I did with Wizard of Oz worked, but I'm currently installing Ubuntu on the other computer as I type, which doesn't support Livestream (or rather vice versa)

4. Learn Python?

I'm glad I know and use Ruby, but I also know enough about Python to use it if I have to. I went to Pycon and it was quite enjoyable, though Atlanta gave a bad impression. I even understood the intermediate/advanced tutorial to a degree. It was kind of fast paced. The people next to me got lost.

5. Transfer all my files to the mac and set up everything like I had before, like that popping noise my IRC client makes when I'm pinged.

Haven't touched my old laptop in over a year, so I am installing Ubuntu and going to use it as my only-there-to-be-a-second-laptop-and-play laptop.

6. Update website.

Project for the future still. Going to completely revamp, like I did the studio site. BTW the studio site looks amazing! For mine, I'm totally getting rid of the dark purple and making it more professional looking. Using ColourLovers to come up with a CSS design. I had one but decided it would be best for the bot's website if I make it.

7. Bike as much as possible.

Ha. Ha ha. Bike? Please. I'm too tired after work to bike.

8. Choreograph a dance.

I've made enough dances this summer, I'm almost sick of it. Even though they're for 7-year-olds. I'm just so tuckered out all the time from running around with kids then staying up late because I can't sleep then being tired the next day but still running around and... why can't I sleep at night? Why must I be so sleepy during the day?

9. Go college shopping.

I know where I'm going. Community college. Already applied, accepted, decided major. Just need to sign up for classes, which start in 3 weeks.

10. Get my license.

Got it in April I believe. First try! Won't have a full license (not provisional) until mid-September if I know the law right.

11. Go to Carowinds in NC/SC.

Need a little burst of freedom, energy, and time to travel somewhere nice...




Clean up basement and somehow make it livable.
Not happened yet. Not even progress. I'm in Community College but just living in my room.

Get my license.
Done and done.

Get comfortable with photo equipment and setup website.
Also done.

Find a new server host and re-setup websites and bot.
And done!

Try out chroma key.
Haven't tried yet and actually forgot I was planning on doing this. Not had too much time lately to work on my projects (like the basement) but will have more time once school starts hopefully.

Take SATs.
Wow, I wrote this a long time ago. I got a 710 in math, yay.

Zombie Walk

I'm planning on doing a zombie walk for Halloween. Unfortunately I didn't publicize it to enough people early enough because I was feeling pessimistic about the idea because I didn't know what people would think :( But it's still gonna happen! And anyone's invited :) That I approve of at least.

This Sunday is preparation day and we'll walk twice on Halloween. Once during daylight at the mall or downtown (to get used to it) and once after night falls throughout my neighborhood. Hopefully it's a big and close enough group that we're able to stay in character and feel good about it.

On prep day I would like to go on a field trip to Goodwill and back to the studio to tear up clothes, practice and decide on makeup and how we'll be walking and acting, and learn the Thriller dance. Just in case. We'll make it a little party.

Speaking of party, the zombie walk double as my birthday party. We can trick or treat as zombies or something else if wanted. Then there will be cake. That is not a lie.

I've typed out general rules and guidelines on being zombies and I'm totally prepared to teach the dance. Wish me luck.

Goals and To Do for the Rest of the Year

Clean up basement and somehow make it livable.
I want to possibly go to just community college (even if I don't want to it might be all we can afford for now) and live from the basement. I am not NOT NOT going to live at home in my same old bedroom. Basement is fine.

Get my license.
Driver's Ed ends the 26th but I missed a day and might miss another so I probably won't even be eligible to test for my license until at least December. And who knows if I'm gonna pass the first time...

Get comfortable with photo equipment and setup website.
The boss wants me to do photography this year. I have no experience in portraits with people and backgrounds and poses so she wants me to get my feet wet at various times of the year, including taking pictures of random kids in costumes at the studio on the 30th when we have the trick-or-treating event at the shopping center. I would honestly rather teach the Thriller dance at set times all night to people in the community as it is a dance studio. With dancing. Not photography.

Find a new server host and re-setup websites and bot.
My host got mad at my mom or something and took all her and my websites down. Might just get our own splice. Something I'm more comfortable putting my bot on.

Try out chroma key.
I got a green screen among other backgrounds for photography but I'm thinking of finding different ways to make it useful.

Take SATs.
Which I haven't done yet... bad idea.

That Summer List...

1. Get my bot working on this mac... then maybe on the server... (etc)

Well my bot works on this mac now, and theoretically it will work on the server. I just haven't talked to my host about the best way to do that yet. The html parsing problem still exists but I've taken out that functionality for now. Sadly the bot hasn't been around lately because I'm not always home or haven't been in the mood or forget to bring her in. I've made myself a bot. Not a bot for me, I mean I am the bot. Basically I've coded a few things into my own client and just brought in chattytunes to do the iTunes stuff.

2. Clean up the wires behind the studio computer... (etc)

I tried doing that. It turned out that we actually do have a lot of wires back there that we actually use and my cleaning up didn't make much difference. I'm hoping somehow we can get new, smaller office chairs and tidy the office even more to make the computer sit farther back or even under the desk! I'm very weird about the office. I get upset when people come in and move things around and leave stuff just laying there and don't pick up after themselves. I also get upset that they leave nasty, old Rita's cups and McDonalds bags in the trash can clearly labeled to say throw your food and drink trash in the outside can. There's a reason for that. It attracts those gnats you're always complaining about.

3. Somehow be able to stream on livestream straight from my computer's DVD drive.

This didn't work out either. I did stream the Wizard of Oz, but from my old laptop while I chatted and watched on my new one. I will find a way! I will!

4. Learn Python?

Well, kinda. Not much more than I already knew. I can read it now, and the minor details I can always Google. I feel that either Ruby has better documentation or I'm just used to it because it's slightly easier for me to find what I need to know for Ruby than for Python, even though Python is more popular.

5. Transfer all my files to the mac and set up everything like I had before, like that popping noise my IRC client makes when I'm pinged.

I did transfer most of my files. At least the really important ones. I lost about half my music but got the things I downloaded so I can always replace the rest. I haven't turned on my old laptop in ages (probably should just to check on it) because I haven't needed it, which is a good thing. This new one is sooo much faster.

6. Update website.

Actually working on that now. I'd like it to be a bit more pleasing to the eye and less simple simple. But there really isn't enough that I do that I would like to publish to fill an entire website. When I start my career, sure, but I'm just a teen. A teen girl for that matter. Still, the main source of truly updated information should be my blog (If I actually post, which I should) and maybe even my twitter account. But I shall be making that private soon because if I go through with actually starting to use it, I don't want the whole world to know where I'm eating lunch.

7. Bike as much as possible.

Barely happened. I rode down to the beach a few times but it gets tiring, especially on the way back with that one enormous hill, and it's hard to get the hang of it. The last time I did it I tore up my heel from stupidly stopping myself with my foot and the pedal slammed into it. I bled my way up the big hill back home. Blech.

8. Choreograph a dance.

Eh. Let's not get into that. Didn't really even try this.

9. Go college shopping.

Well, I would have, but my mom didn't schedule any college visits all summer. She's the one that needs to pay for it and drive me there and visit with me so I was thinking she would do it if I reminded her enough but noo. She finally scheduled two for the beginning of November after a little fight we had where she decided to do some more mom things.

10. Get my license.

I'm currently enrolled in driver's ed on Tuesdays and Thursdays until the end of the month, but will be missing the 14th due to the marching band exhibition, so I have to take one class in the next session which begins in November. Then I have to get my hours with the instructor, so I probably won't be eligible to test for my provisional until sometime in December.

11. Go to Carowinds in NC/SC.

Yeah... didn't happen. Especially because of the license thing. But soon! I hope.

This Blog is Green

No, you're not colorblind. I mean it's green because it takes less energy to show it. Think about it this way...

On your computer, the brighter the screen, the more electrical energy it takes. So... with my black background and purple letters, my blog is green! For example, check this out: blackle.com Also, turn off your lights and do "stuff" in the dark!

What happened to my randomness pie?

IT'S OVER 9000!!!!!

FONT SIZE OVER 9000 AAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Just another fight

Me: I'm hungryyyyy-
Grandmother: DON'T YOU DARE EAT THEN NOT EAT THAT CASSEROLE!
Don't say it like that! I wasn't gonna!
YOU DO IT EVERY NIGHT-
For the entire last week I skipped lunch because it was too late to eat!
LET THE DOG IN!!!!
I'm going up-
I DON'T CARE WHERE YOU GO (SOMETHING LOUD BUT I STOPPED LISTENING)
SHUT UP
(MORE YELLING)
SHUT UP!!!!
BITCH!!!!!!!!!

I Dunno If You'll Understand This

Hpricot (a ruby gem) crashes my bot. It's an html parser that I use to get her to read websites and such... but when Cookie uses it on this computer, as soon as she's done doing what she's doing, she just exits. No exceptions raised, no errors, and it's not even actually exiting. It just stops. IRC says the "client exited" which is what happens when I ^C from the terminal. I can't figure out what she's doing. She actually does what she's supposed to do, like the one feature where she gets the first paragraph of a Wikipedia page. She returns the paragraph, then "client exited". Ugh. It worked on Windows!

Things I Want to Do This Summer

Well, summer's here. And I have a to do list, aside from the usual... what I HAVE to do.

• Get my bot working on this mac... then maybe on the server. This includes completely stripping anything windows related, and maybe even taking the iTunes function away :(
  
• Clean up the wires behind the studio computer (in addition to more tidying. I already cleaned up the computer itself)
• Somehow be able to stream on livestream straight from my computer's DVD drive
• Learn Python?
• Transfer all my files to the mac and set up everything like I had before, like that popping noise my IRC client makes when I'm pinged
• Update website
  
• Bike as much as possible
• Choreograph a dance
• Go college shopping
• Get my license
• Go to Carowinds in NC/SC

This all goes with the normal summer assignments and working at the studio. If any nerds have any ideas for any of these, feel free to comment or message me.

BTWs - Our Second Dance Competition and Recital

We won a first place trophy! On our hiphop dance! For Starpower which is known to be tough! Keep in mind these are middle class white girls whose school is very well funded and aren't natural hiphoppers. I'm proud. I got in on it for recital, but not the competition for reasons known.

Recital was fun. I was in ONE dance (hiphop) and I got to help with the sound tech :D Although we had 2 technical difficulties, one being during a duet where the power completely went out, and two being that the CD I gave for the finale was damaged so we had to start over :/

Other than that, I think it was one of our best shows yet, and I got a LOT of complements on my hiphoppin', people saying how that was my forte and I really needed that and everyone's eyes are drawn to me :3 Not a big head here, that's what they said. I grew up in a different area than these other girls too, though I've been dancing for 14 years, so that may be it. Iunno.

I hope to stream the DVD when it comes out. I've still yet to stream Wizard of Oz. That is all! Ta ta!

Today's Fight

I’m going up.

Are all the groceries in?

*sigh* Yes…

*stops and turns, says forcefully* Thank you

You’re welcome

Mom and I haven’t had a single fight in the past few weeks.

BECAUSE SHE DOESN’T MAKE YOU DO ANYTHING

(I forgot what I said here but it including me saying in a hurt way that she was yelling at me)

I WASN’T YELLING AT YOU, I WAS TELLING YOU “WHAT AM I S’POSED TO DO?”

You were yelling at me.

*pauses* OKAY I WAS YELLING AT YOU

Why are you yelling at me now?

BECAUSE YOU’RE GOD DAMN LAZY

I’ve been helping with recital all week.

I COME IN HERE WITH $200 DOLLARS OF GROCERIES AND-

*sob* YOU DON’T NEED $200 DOLLARS OF GROCERIES *turns and runs up the stairs to my room and slams the door*



I sob because, like I have said before, I don't take yelling well. In this case, I tried very hard to remain calm, but without my defensive system of yelling back, I got that... well see the previous post.

Don't Hurt Me!

I don't do well with yelling. For as long as I can remember, when I'm put into a situation where someone is yelling at or even scolding me and I can't defend myself, I get very anxious and upset. In a fight with my parents, I'm okay because... well... I've taught myself to yell back at them and not bottle up those emotions, but when someone I don't feel deserves it starts to get on the offense, I cringe and sometimes whimper. I want to cry, and I occasionally do.

Prom

It's slightly depressing seeing all of these young people going to prom. They have friends or significant others that are older than them and get to go twice or more times in their life. I'm not the type to make a big deal of prom, but it's something you wanna say you've gone to. It's a good memory and experience to have. I was lucky enough to start dating someone in the same grade and school as I am, so I'll only go once if I make it (with my luck who knows if I'll get swine flu right before)

No worries. I've had plenty other good memories that many others will never enjoy >:)

Spanish your teacher never taught

me gustan penes
te gustan coños
pero coños son brutas (a mi)
tu tienes un pene que mide nueve pulgadas
tengo un coño apretado
pega tu pene a mi coño
este es tan erótico

Quick note...

...about how much the school system sucks

Have I ever told you about my guidance counselor? She's an IB counselor. So she doesn't care about her individual kids. We're all smart good students. We don't have problems. She just worries about college stuff. You need to make an appointment days ahead and then don't see her until two months later. So obviously the day I was so depressed that I hid under the science lab tables until someone found me... she was nowhere to be found. I got an intern. Nicest lady I have ever met. (event somewhat mentioned here)

Edit: This post was written two days ago. Thanks, mom, for cutting off my internet at 9pm RIGHT WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO HIT "PUBLISH POST"

I have that!

Patellofemoral pain syndrome I have that!
Dysmenorrhea I have that!
ADHD predominantly inattentive I have that!
Iron deficiency anemia I have that sometimes...
Exercise-induced asthma I have that!
Milk allergy I used to have that
Also, some weird "mini staph infection" thing. And it seems that many individuals agree to the existence of mini staph infections but there are no articles or journals that I can find on them. Hm.

Obviously I have other things. Everyone has something right? Actually, there's a wonderful mini-script I wrote about that. I may have blagged this before. I will look into it.

But this is just a random post for the day. Hope you enjoyed it!

First Dance Competition

Well, this weekend I participated in my first dance competition ever. It was at Kings Dominion. I didn't win anything. But it was definitely not out of my league. I think a big reason we weren't so good was that the other dancer, Abby, is a littleun (about 10-12ish?) and she kept getting ahead. COUNT, GOSH!

I'm not actually on the competition team. It's new this year. I've always hated competition dancers. Most of them are just white teen girls that love glitter and rhinestones and don't care about others' feelings, and when they're trying to get somewhere they just push you, yelling "OUT OF THE WAY OUT OF THE WAY!" (This is from past experience from when I was a little girl and my studio used to have competition. All the girls were just so mean. It was miserable.)

I also don't like glitter. Or fake jewelery. Or any jewelery for that matter. My ears aren't pierced. And I don't like stickers. But that's beside the point.

There were two reasons I did this. 1- for Abby. 2- for Kings Dominion. I was asked to fill in because this competition doesn't accept solo pieces. Little did I know I would end up not being able to wear a bra. TMI? My booty shorts came off right in the middle of the dance. Booty shorts! Lol! I pulled them up, don't worry. Nobody I asked noticed, but apparently it happened to Abby too. I also had to wear clip on earrings. BLECH! And lots of makeup. That was expected. But it was unpleasant on the sunburn. It was all around unpleasant. "I would've gotten out of this by now if it weren't for Abby, but if anyone even comes close to me with glitter, I'm done." You might be like, "She's complaining for nothing," and I realize I have it good. But I am SO not a girly girl. Thank god it was at King's Dominion.

And, well, we didn't win anything. And I didn't get to ride the new coasters: neither the Dominator nor the Intimidator. But it was fun. And I "did great" according to parents and friends.

/me is moderate

1. My site's back up. That makes me happy. And my blog domain got switched to blog.nefnee.com. Mood- :)
2. I can't get on the server. First, I didn't know the password. Then, it just stopped liking me. I can get on [insert name here]'s server just fine. Grr. I could even connect 5 minutes ago. It just DOESN'T LIKE ME! Mood- D:<
3. I get to go to Kings Dominion this weekend!!! WOOOOO!!!!! But, part of the weekend I have to compete for dance RAWR! Mood- :]
4. I've got lots of school work to do. Meh. End of half-semester coming up. Mood- :'(

Am I shallow?

I need to make this one point nice and clear: It is NOT shallow to not want an online relationship. I repeat: IT IS NOT SHALLOW TO NOT BE INTERESTED IN ONLINE DATING!

One might make the point, "If you have everything in common and get along and like each other then you should go ahead and do it." My point is that if you were really that meant to be, you would end up together somehow. You might travel to see said person between the time you leave school and start looking for a job. If it works out, try it then. Just keep in touch for now, okay?

Another point one would make, "You shouldn't base a relationship on physical contact." Some people might not need it, but for me, I do base it muchly on real hugs, real kisses, real contact. It is my choice and it is NOT SHALLOW! When I cry, I need a hug. I need a shoulder to cry on. I want to go on dates. I want to hold hands. I want to see a smile. Hear a voice. I don't want to stick to the computerized voices you get when you talk on the phone or on skype.

Sometimes, It's just not worth it.

Happy Valentine's Day

Don't we all love a good anti-holiday movie?

This is a Happy Valentine's Day wish to anyone who I happen to link to my blag today.

This is also in awareness of those singles out there! Happy Singles Awareness Day!

For me?

You have this friend. You dated her for a while, exclusively on the internet might I add, but towards the end, things went bad, she didn't respect you as one should a true boyfriend, and it ended. A month or so later, you began to date this other girl, who you eventually "fell in love" with. Ex is mainly bitchy to you anymore, and gf wants you to just leave her be, for your own good.

One day, ex is upset about a boy that may have rejected her or something, and is saying suicidal things. You want to help her, because you, of course, are a good person and if you ever leave suicidal friends alone, you feel terrible about yourself.

But today it's bothering you. You tell your gf that you're done talking to people that are just gonna be suicidal and stuff. Your gf tells you that she's been nothing but mean to you, and so on. You agree. But you're still talking to the ex. You complain some more, and gf replies, "Stop talking to her? For me? She wouldn't do the same for you."

Key word: "for me"

If you refuse your own girl's "for me" to continue talking to someone who's nothing but mean to you, then you need to get your head checked. Most girls, I think, would get mad if her boyfriend refused a "for me" at ANY time in ANY situation, so be careful, men.

Story brought to you by a friend of mine and donations from viewers like you.

And just a note: don't worry about the girl. She has plenty of love from other people. She's fine.

Do you care?

It's weird when I'm the first one to talk to you. All the time. But when I do, you always seem happy to talk to me. At first at least. We go through the same dialogue every time, then you have to go. This actually happens completely online, because I've only gotten the privilege to speak to you in person... once? And have I hugged you? Nope. You don't really seem to realize how much I actually do want to hug you. I want to get to know you. But whether it's a long conversation or a short one, you always leave very suddenly. And lately, yeah... we don't talk for very long in the first place. You are quite busy. You don't need to talk to little me. I'm a tiny unimportant spec in your life. Hanging out with me would just be a day's waste of your precious time back home. You hug plenty other girls who are crazy about you, so nothing I can say will change your views about someone who just wants to be a good friend. Have a nice life, you.

Maturity

I know this happens to a lot of people. You're talking to a smart-ass "friend" that insists they are more mature than you. If they were so mature they wouldn't INSIST ON EXPLAINING that they were more mature. It's like mocking someone because of their sexual orientation. You say that to feel better about your own.

My friend has a few girls that all do the same thing. Meanly calling him immature. In this "I'm smart, you're stupid" way. He's not immature. He's more mature than all of them. He just can't find a witty enough comment to prove it.

I say, "Tell her this."
He says, "Too late, I already said 'lol blah blah blah.'"
"You're giving her the upper hand!"
"I don't want to argue."

It's not arguing if you are mature. It's being witty. She'll leave you alone if you say the right thing. You don't have to be mean. If she does try to argue, you can tell her that trying to argue is immature.

To the girl, If you were so mature, you wouldn't be giving him a hard time for nothing. Mature people don't insult those who never did anything wrong to them.

What do you call it?

This nicely describes a... oh... how to say without being mean?
...person I know. Yes, written by me.
I'm no pro. Obviously.

you say you don't lie
but i never made that promise.
what you don't know
is that i know everything about you
and i'm not ready to be fooled
like the fools in your past
because i could see right through you
right from the beginning.
i have a good judge of character
and i'm sorry to say
actually i'm not that sorry to say
you're not my type.
it was nice knowing you.
actually i'm just being polite.
go fuck yourself.

Don't you just love that? "Go fuck yourself" So punk... so... impossible. Seriously. Can anyone explain how that is possible?

Chicken Soup

Because I'm feeling a bit sick to my stomach, my good friend sent me a picture of chicken noodle soup.
That inspired me to start reading the first story from a bunch of Chicken Soup for the Souls. Well... the teen ones at least. Most of them I realize... suck. Every writer seems to be either a preppy 15 year old that fools around or an innocent 8th grade-freshman kid that doesn't know anything about high school. My school is diverse. I try to be nice to everyone. I don't have any enemies nor do I know any of those douches that only strive to get laid. I have many friends and acquaintances. Sure, there are those girls that I just don't like, but I live on the theory that everyone is raised this way. Everyone does something for a reason, for the good of their lives and the lives of the ones they care about. Don't let people hurt your feelings because obviously something brought that on and you should just accept it and fight it with kindness and maybe even figure out if they may be right. See it through their eyes. They may do things you wouldn't do in that situation, but that's just them. Let people know that. What I do: tell other people involved that I'm not perfect and always make the right decisions but what they did was uncalled for and not right and someone needs to give them a good smack in the face and a talking to. Also, people make assumptions. People overreact. Just because they see you walking out of the woods doesn't mean you have done something wrong. You took a walk. Get over it. And you can tell them that without force or anger. They jumped to conclusions. Take that thought and yank it out of their minds. You're not an evil person. Nobody is. I don't care what your religion says. Sins are only mistakes, though brought on by the way you were raised, in your pursuit of happiness.

A Little Advice for the Average Girl

I don't like girls. Yes, I am a girl, but I understand how horrible and confusing and mean and scheming girls can be, which is why I stopped liking them. Girls need to know some things. These aren't all actually taken from my point of view, but some are directed at people I know.

1. If you're not going to be supportive, stay out of my business.
2. Don't bitch about me if you don't know me. If I've never spoken to you in my life, or if the only times we have spoken were perfectly nice, there's no reason to be such a-
3. Just because it's something YOU would do (or have done) doesn't mean it's something I would do. I'm not you.
4. Don't judge.
5. Stop taking your jealousy out on other people. Jealousy is internal, like PMSing. Nobody would want to date a constantly PMSing girl anyway, so shut it.
6. If you decide something, stick to it. Don't hurt someone and expect them to forgive you later. If they do, they are a p-
7. The constant heart-sending to your girl friends is ANNOYING but that's just my opinion.
8. Stop throwing around "I love you" like that. To me, that means "I'd take a bullet for you. Jump off a bridge for you. This doesn't necessarily mean like a lover but having you in my life just makes me happy." Say it when you mean it.
   
9. STOP SCHEMING! The biggest reason that I dislike girls: Scheming. Talking behind peoples backs. Giving dirty looks or worse, acting totally yet artificially nice.

So that's all I have for now. May just keep adding to the list later because I have many things to say XD

Excuse me for the messed up post. It's not very happy, huh?

I Have Officially Become a Photographer

DeviantArt makes everything official.
(Copyright ~Nefnee. Look on the site for the license.)

In other news, I am frantically procrastinating. The end of the term is this Friday and I have missed way to much History class. I am also having family issues. My mom is feeling better therefore she will be up my butt again. She has began to watch my text messaging usage since I had about 10,000 last month.

Now listen, 10,000 is not that much. It's just over 300 a day, in and out. So only about 150 a day both ways. I'm awake, on average, 18 hours a day. So that's only 9 messages sent an hour. NOT THAT MUCH!

Finally, our homecoming was awesome. I love marching band :)

Chocolate Week

"Chocolate? Did you say... chocolate?! CHOCOLATE?! CHOCOLATE!!! CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!! *gasp* CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!!!!"

CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!